Well, one thing is for certain, I have had a lot of time to sit and think.
My goal is to find something positive about each day and focus on that. This is what I know - Life is short, each day is precious, what we do with it, and what we make of it, is our own choice.
I need to remember how lucky I am to have my husband, I hope he remembers that I really do love him, and that soon, someday soon life will be back to “normal”. Although at this point in time I’m ticked off, and he doesn’t get it.
I need to remember how lucky we are to have Pan and Tink, and how much I love them. I need to focus on them, and what amazing kids they are. Because I haven’t been doing that.
I need to remember, that we were done having kids, as a married couple we made that decision years ago.
It’s just that, well… I don’t know -
why all of the sudden does watching the baby shows on TLC make me incredibly sad?
Why does talking to my SIL (due Nov 1) make me so sad? I’ve never been happier when they FINALLY got pregnant, and now, I find myself choking back tears, because she’s pregnant, and I’m, I’m well, I’m not.
WTH?
Someone slap me, because this is just not normal people. Not normal at all. I am where I am because that is where I need to be.
Tomorrow and the 4th are going to be so hard on me. Mr. Incredible is going up to the in-laws to get the kids, and won’t be home until later in the afternoon on the 4th. I’m home all by myself. (There is just no way I could handle the car ride - the bumps would kill me - 4 hours is a long time.) And yet he is home tonight, and he’s downstairs surfing the net. It’s not like he is organizing his room - he got a computer set up and he’s done -it’s not done. I’m ticked off, yet, he doesn’t even care. I’m a people person, I’ve been home alone all day Tuesday, all day Wednesday with no one to talk to - because my friends work… and I’m really quiet bored, out of my mind, and he doesn’t get it. He just doesn’t get it.
12:58 am
I get it. All of it.
You can email me if you need to vent or chat. Anytime. Well, anytime tomorrow. I should’ve been in bed a long time ago.
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4:51 am
I believe my doctor told me…”it’s hormones” I went through a phase of getting sad about not being able to have kids. It passes eventually and you just accept it.
*hugs*
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6:39 am
This is quite normal to have all of the feelings you are having right now. Hang in there! Instead of watching the ones where the babies are born, watch the ones where they bring them home. Then they complain about how the baby didn’t sleep, they won’t nurse, or poop too much, lol. That always clears my thoughts about having another papoose.
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9:30 am
Hmm, perhaps you should skip from TLC to watching home makeovers on HI.
PS - you can call me, I can take time away from my desk for a little bit.
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1:46 pm
Yeah, I think it all sounds pretty normal too with all the changes your body is going through. Find a good comedy and watch that - I even resort to reruns of old sitcoms when I need a good laugh.
Hang in there… ((HUGS)) to you!
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10:20 am
I totally get that. When I did daycare at home, I couldn’t wait for my husband to get home so I could have adult conversation. He wasn’t interested, he’d either sit down and watch TV or get on the computer. He wouldn’t even barely look at me until all the kids were done.
As far as the weepiness? I think that is normal, hon. Major change in hormones, surgery, drugs, a sense of loss are all things that can bring on those feelings. It will get better, you know.
I’m so sorry that I was without a laptop during this time when you could have used a few e-cards, encouraging emails, jokes or whatever to help you feel better at least for a few minutes.
I did read all of the posts, I missed while gone.
Hugs, FG. You are the best. Don’t forget it.
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12:03 pm
So sorry, ditto to what everyone else said. Hang in there!
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2:50 pm
I think the sadness is pretty normal after your surgery, what with all the hormonal shifts and such. But as for the hubby “getting it” and jumping in to respond to your every need? Well, in my experience anyway, men typically are clueless when it comes to our needs. Give him a pass and try to spoil yourself as much as you can until you’re feeling better.